When did the world turn upside down?
I tell you, the world has gone mad… M.A.D.
I haven’t done a blog for a couple of weeks, my absence due
to yet another family crisis and writing The Nanny. I become absolutely
submerged in the story I am writing. I should change my occupation to ‘crisis
management consultant’ or ‘fire fighter’, that’s how I feel sometimes. It’s
blooming hard work bringing up two boys, writing, running a home, managing
Meniere’s, all single-handedly. It’s made even harder by the people who barely
begin to understand all of it but claim to be expert analysts of my life!
Why do some people get so angry at someone not singing the
national anthem or wearing the right colour poppy yet ignore children in
poverty, the homeless on the streets, disabled people cruelly losing their life
as a direct result of cuts and human beings dying fleeing from war? Really?
Explain it to me because I do NOT understand the warped sense of loyalty to
tradition yet not to the human race.
I imagine every writer to go through stages of self-doubt
and low self-esteem. I know I do but mine is also fuelled by Meniere’s and
other people constant battering and bitching about me. Honestly, I do try to
just get on with my life but it is really hard to ignore when it is members of
your own family. Over the years of my life, I seemed to have attracted some right maniacs
– ‘maniac magnet’. I naively let them into my life only to find they have some
sick, deep rooted hatred, usually borne from gossip and pre-conceived ideas of
what I should be, not what I am. Regrettably this includes family members which
has been proven beyond all reasonable doubt this week. Devastated yet resigned
that my instincts were right all along. My circle of friends will stay
exclusively small and I am quite happy to become a recluse. I don’t know why people want to be evil, I
just don’t get it. I don’t understand why people want to knock other people
down. I am genuinely happy for anyone to succeed through their own hard work,
determination and vision. Maybe one day, someone would be kind enough to
explain it to me. The fact is people who have not striven for dreams or out of their comfort zone do NOT understand that you have to take the knock backs on the way to the top. You can either sit out life on the side-lines or get out there and get stuck in. Criticism is given to people who dare to have a go by people who are nothing more than merely existing. Am I mad? Probably. Am I sensitive and caring? Definitely. Am I wanting to show my children that you don't have to let life pass you by? HELL YES!!!
Writing
The Nanny
This is proving a fabulous challenge as I am writing it with
flashbacks to the 1970s. I love it. The beauty of writing is, not one day is the
same. When I am writing I am lost in another world, the world I am creating.
This is the first time I have used detailed flashbacks. I am really enjoying
the research and the writing. The more I write the more I fall in love with
writing. Once the money appears and takes the financial pressure off, I will be
in my perfect place.
#RIP Uncle Danny
My uncle died yesterday. I have so many happy memories,
particularly of the stories he told of Ireland. We had
some amazing discussions about The Troubles and he is one of the inspirations
behind The Nanny. He taught me to look at the conflict from so many
perspectives. RIP Uncle Danny and thank you xxxxx
Beyond the Past
My book is available in the UK, USA and now in Australia, which
is pretty amazing. Next week, I am going to be doing some intensive online
marketing, specifically targeted at Australia. I know they love rugby league. Watch
out for me on social media.
I recently came across a 5 star rating I had received in the
USA which was a much needed boost. It really gives me the confidence to keep
going. Thank you.
That 'P' word
Politics has always played a big part in our family life. We
have great debates, all three of us – yes Lucas can hold his own when it comes
to his beliefs! We are loving the revitalised left wing movement, not just in
the UK but in places like Portugal. The times they are a changing and all the
lies are being exposed. Watch out world!!
It was a very proud moment this week when we attended a
University Open Day and one of the lecturers on a course admitted he wanted Wes
on his course because of his interest in politics and current affairs. The
course is right Wes' street and his enthusiasm for the course resulted in an
incredibly intelligent personal statement. I’m looking forward to him opening
his horizons at University, the debates will rage on.
You could always join Momentum and help shape a better world for our future generations.
You could always join Momentum and help shape a better world for our future generations.
In spite of the ridicule and derision, I am glad I have
stood my ground and brought the boys up my way. I am proud they are growing up
into independent leaders not followers. They know their own minds but are not
arrogant as to not listen to other viewpoints. They know what is right and
wrong and they know their Mama is proud and unconditionally in love with them.
Have a fabulous week. Don’t let people put you off what you
can be and don’t judge people by what comes out of other people’s mouths. Stay
true to who you are.
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