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Monday, 1 August 2016
Happy Yorkshire Day
It's Yorkshire Day
today. I am very proud to be a Yorkshire lass. It is an amazing place to live
and I am thankful of my heritage. It also makes a breath taking backdrop for
I had a breakthrough
this week. I really believe the last ten years have been about letting go of
the rotten; accepting life's lot and Meniere's and re-focusing my life and
energy on new dreams and aspirations. Life is for living and I intend to make
every day count. After shaking off everything and everyone who has brought negativity
into my life, I did go through a period of 'how will I cope' alone. Sometimes
clinging on to things means you suffer more than living alone. In spite of my
ears being terrible this week, I have focused on setting new goals. We are
surviving, just the three of us and in fact, we love the peace and lots and
lots of laughter.
Over the coming months,
we will be moving house, Lucas will start his last year at Primary School and
Wes starts at University. I have lots of projects on the go with some new exciting
plans for our future. To think what we have been through over recent years, we
have done pretty well, not only to stay sane but actually to stay positive and
know better things are just around the corner.
Unfortunately, I could
not secure funding for my PhD in time to start it this September BUT I have
accepted an unconditional offer to study a Masters in Information Technology
this year. On top of that, a part time job has appeared that is right up my
street and will tie in perfectly with my new goals. If I'm successful, it will
be the first step towards our better life and one positive step to my ultimate
goal in life.
I will continue to
write but, quite simply, it is not paying the bills yet. None of my life has
gone to plan but so far, thankfully, the many changes and adaptations have led
onto better and bigger things. For that I am truly grateful. If the part time
job comes off, it will work harmoniously with the degree and my precious little
family. It will also be a major step in my Meniere's recovery, enabling me to
be out and about in the 'real' world again. If it doesn’t come off, I still
have my degree, my writing and my gorgeous family. I'm sure you can see why I
feel so happy at the moment. I have choices, hope and we are in a much stronger
position than we think or give ourselves credit for.
This is the first time
in the last decade, I feel in control of life and of Meniere's. It has been a
very slow, agonising process but I can cope with the symptoms, the pain and the
acceptance of my pace of life. More importantly, I can define my future by
working around Meniere's and stop it from hindering my progress. This is mainly
because I have taken control of what and who can influence my life and
ultimately my stress levels.
Let's face it –
sometimes, life is a blooming struggle and a right pain in the a***. It can also be…
magical, exciting and what you make of it. I choose to dream big and back it up
with hard work and persistence. This is my life and MY DREAMS. The next chapter
is going to be even more amazing than the last.
Most of all, I'm going
to stop being so hard on myself and allow myself to enjoy the magical moments
we are creating. My PhD will still go ahead – so if you know of anyone who
would like to sponsor a hardworking Mum, showing her boys hard work pays off,
please direct them my way. I will look after them.
On Saturday, I was very
brave (fellow Meniere's sufferers will know what I mean). I went out alone. I
joined the thousands of people who congregated at the Royal Armouries to hear
Jeremy Corbyn speak. I helped out on one of the Momentum stalls and it was
great fun. I got the pleasure of speaking to lots of people, young and old.
People had travelled miles and miles for the event and I spoke with people who
had voted Tory, Lib Dem and for the Greens at the last General Election. I had goosebumps
listening to how enthusiastic people were at the prospect of what they saw, as
new ideas and policies. It was really heartwarming to see the reception Jeremy
received but even more heartwarming to see Jeremy Corbyn take the time to stop
and speak with the two policemen on duty.
Whatever the media,
establishment and rebel MPs day, if you can, get to one of his events and
listen to his speech. I defy anyone to find a more genuine, honest and determined
Don't believe for one
moment these events are full of militants and trouble causers. These events are
attended by genuine people who are fed up of working hard and not getting
anywhere. I ask you to give him a chance.
Have a great week - it's the first day of a new month - a perfect time for you to set your new goals. Have fun